I'm struggling today. I went to bed at 2am this morning. Slept but woke around 6am and just couldn't get back to sleep so got up just before 8am. I feel like crying right now. I can't stop thinking about 'Maria'.

When we were together it was always good apart for the last time I saw her. I really don't get why she decided to dump me. She just won't tell me. I don't think she even cares.

She's at the other place still. Just nothing. It's like I didn't even exist. It's shit.

I'm trying to get on with starting a business but it's taking a long time. Lots and lots of work involved.