Why am I such a shit person?

Why doesn't anyone like me?

Why don't I have any friends?

Why is it impossible for anyone to want to be with me?

This is so fucked up.

I love her.

Why has she done this to me?

Why can't I just die and disapear? Just want to die. No one want's me here. No one wants me at all. No one can stand me. I just want to die.

Been in the hospital for 5 hours today. My dad is in for an operation. They kept him waiting with no information whatsoever about when he was going to have the operation.