Dear blog,
I've mostly feeling dejected and empty today. I miss her so bad. When we were together it was great. We didn't argue or fight. I don't get it. I don't get how everyone else had decided i'm a bad guy and want nothing to do with me. All because I fell in love.
I have got a few things done. Washing up, going through a load of old magazines and putting them in the recycling. I'm a hoarder. Unfortunatly we've run out of space! I'm overwhelmed with clutter. Just need to get rid of stuff.
I've also been trying to teach myself how to use Adobe Illustrator. Could be interesting...!
Been playing limit poker also on party poker and not actually doing too well today. Ho hum.
I want to go back. Back to the other place. But will they have me? That's not too much of a bother to me to be honest. I'm more bothered about her. If she's really happy without me, if she's found someone else. I don't think I can take any more hurt.
I just want to scream and scream and scream.
I don't think anyone has clicked on my link yet. www.sharemydesires.co.ukIt needs some work. Ok, a lot of work. My next job.
I need to run. That's what is forging my need to go back to the other place. Back still isn't quite right. I'm not even sure that it is my back. Maybe piriformis. I don't know. Can't afford a physio. I'm going to run tomorrow anyway. Fuck it.
Goodnight blog.
