I wrote not too long ago musing about what defines me. I also wonder who I am.
Perception. How I am perceived by different individuals. Some people get it completely wrong. I guess I'm thinking more along the lines of my online prescence and 'the other place'. Some people there have got me completely wrong. Some just don't understand. I have tried to tell the people who have got it wrong that they have but they don't believe it. They have convinced temselves that's what I am.
That's not a problem in itself. The problem is they try and convince others that is the case too. That's when it becomes an issue.
Those who simply just don't understand, I've said to them, no, your misinterpreting.... This is how it is, let me try and explain in a different way...
Then I get accuesed of being aggressive! Anyone who meets me would soon realise I am the complete opposite of aggressive! If I had been stood in front of her she'd have seen I just just trying to explain because I wanted her to understand.
So, perception then. Those are just a few people. How do other's perceive me? I guess from my blog a lot of people get the impression that I'm constantly whinging and moaning and feeling sorry for myself. The truth is, if i didn't write it down in my blog, no one would know! If asked, or greeted with "alright?" my stock reply is "yes" even though it's a lie and I hate lies.
No one would know.
Watching big brother. Now I have issues with big brother and TV in general. I've only ever watched about 3 incarnations of it regularly. There are 3 where I didn't watch it at all and the rest I just popped in and out of.
I decided to watch the latest one because it's the 10th aniversary so I thought it may be a bit more interesting. So far, it is, to a certain degree, when they are doing tasks. There is a lot of "It's 10:15 am and Shree is in the garden, dogface, halfwit and Norin are in the living room"
WTF? I really couldn't give a shit.
That said it is interesting people watching. The bitching that goes on behind other peoples back. My perception of people has changed, especially for Chris after he was slagging halfwit off in the diary room.
Shree, well he's getting on my wick. I'm a bit scared that I come over a bit like him. God I hope not. The way he's crowding Norin and the way the other housemates seem to think he's harmless. He isn't. He trys to be controlling, telling everyone to shut up. He doesn't listen to anyone, he's rude and incredibly deluded. Norin told him she doesn't want to be any more than friends. I don't think he's all there.
Yeah, anyway. Things to think about, perception, who am I? how do others perceive me?
