I went swimming yesterday with my sister. I haven’t been for years. I have never been a good swimmer. We used to go every Monday evening when I was young, as a family.
I have been meaning to go swimming for a while but I haven’t had the courage. I’ve been scared. I guess I’m scared of people and I feel venerable on my own. I felt I needed someone to go with me.
Well, my sister went with me. She’s decided she wants to get fit. We both have a card that gives us discounts in all the leisure facilities in the town.
After changing, somehow I managed to walk through the women’s shower room! I didn’t have my glasses on so couldn’t see the signs.
I was quite pleased with how well I swam. I stopped between nearly every length of the pool but I did 24 lengths. I’m not sure how long it is but I’m pretty sure that is further than I have ever swam in my life. My arms felt very heavy during most of the swimming but they were ok afterwards. My upper back has been a bit stiff today, muscular rather than anything else.
My sister totally creamed me. She did 32 lengths and I’m ashamed to say was a lot faster than me! She has swam more recently than me and she doesn’t have anywhere near the same amount of weight to haul around as I do.
I don’t think I’ll worry too much about going swimming on my own for a while. There were plenty of other people on their own so I won’t stand out. I think most were just getting on with their getting’s on. I think some were smirking a bit at me but I didn’t really care.
There was a really obese woman in the pool. I’m obese myself but she was at least twice the size of me, yet she was swimming a lot faster than me! I don’t think she swam as far though. She appeared to be stopping for a lot longer than I was.
There was a man who I’d guess was in his 60’s, also in the pool. I was slightly faster than him which was something.
Afterwards we went to McDonalds then I picked my nieces up from school. One of them, MB had a rehearsal for some singing event that she had to go to.
Today I got another run in. I’m mega slow at the moment. My upper back was tense and tight. I think I’ve already mentioned that. I’m pretty much starting from scratch. Just 30 minutes. I will do another 30 on Sunday.
I went to the counselor for CBT although I don’t think she’s doing much actual CBT with me. I think my problems don’t really fit around their basic principles!
I’m a bit reluctant at the moment to do the things she’s suggesting. It just doesn’t seem the right time for me. I’m spending a lot of time researching into starting a business and learning a few new skills so that is taking a lot of time.
Then there is ‘Maria’ I’ve spoke to her on the phone. Twice yesterday. Once on Tuesday. I’m hoping to make a go of things. She hasn’t phoned me today yet. She said she would. I’m trying not to stress about it! That is something I didn’t want to do this time. I don’t want to be sat by the phone waiting for her to call. Instead, I’m writing this blog!
I don’t want to be smothering her. I don’t want her to feel like I’m too obsessive about her. I don’t want to be obsessive about her either.
I did discuss it a bit with the counselor. She basically said “Can you cope with the push and pull?” I told her I could. I thought I could but I’m starting to doubt it now that I’m hoping, waiting for her to call!
Oh well. I will probably swim again tomorrow. My sister has said she wants to. I’m a bit worried about my upper back being so stiff.
POLITICS
I don’t like to write about politics but our current government is a joke. They’ve released the “official” politicians expenses but have blanked out all the bad stuff with marker pen! My god, they really think highly of us! They must think the electorate are a right bunch of idiots!
“No, the black felt tip is just there to make it look pretty, honest! The Telegraph are lying!”
Now, I don’t trust or believe the media anymore than the politicians but come on…
